It was raining when I took the bus passing chow kit. As usual after 5 pm people will rushing home. The traffic jam and rain really driving me crazy, sitting on the bus with a lot of people standing here and there. Couldn’t imagine how those people could survive standing more than 1 hour without enough space. I started to open my journal; It was resins for heavy metal removal written by Korean author. While I’m marking some important points on the paper, the lady sitting next to started staring at me. Knowing sometime people in this condition may feel bored so that they started observing one and each other. Still reading my journal, then I saw the monorail station with people running to avoid the rain. Just realize that I still the same……It was 10 years ago when did my homework on the bus. That time I was taking English course in LIA jalan pramuka, 2 times a week I will reach house very late. Most of time study on the bus on my way home. Yet, I’m very lucky still believe many people can’t get good opportunity like me. Study it make me feel bored and it’s really frustrated. Recently I heard my husband sometime saying “I’ll die soon, too much assignment”……at least its much better your paper can help your research. Anyway I love to learn new things, recently when my prof giving me research title I feel so interest with my new field. Actually not that brand new for me, but I really hope I could play with materials again. I really want to do research in natural product at the beginning but they really drag me out from the track. I know PhD not that easy, even more difficult than master degree. I should write paper, article or any publication. Lately I started to write in English, trying to practice my writing skill. Maybe one day I’ll just sitting at home and writing.